Its hard for me to put my feelings and thoughts into words but in days when I can't figure out how to express myself I need to get better about blogging it. This blog has been such a great outlet for me and it has been encouraging for me to be able to reflect back on this journey I call my life.
Today I feel sad. Today I can own the fact that I have felt waves of sadness numerous times.
I am sad and feeling sorry for myself because I miss my mom. I miss her presense in my life... I miss the love and warmth she poured into her home... I miss having a mother. Don't get me wrong, I feel this way all of the time but today it has just overwhelmed me, in a way that I just cannot shake. I feel breathless, melancholy in a way.
So many memories have come flooding into my thoughts. Memories can help me remember her in a way that I never want to forget and always treasure but on a day like today it just makes me feel worse. I realize that there are many times I do not put my thoughts into words because it hurts too much and I don't feel up to going there. I am really not as strong as I appear.
So there it is, tomorrow will be a better day....
Thinking and praying for you today Kelli that you could have a sense of peace today... You are not alone and it's okay to not be strong, you are an amazing person, hang in there.
ReplyDeleteOh Kelli, I wish I could help. All I can do is pray, pray, pray. I am so sorry you had to lose such a wonderful mother, it just isn't fair. Treasure those memories, even though they hurt I am glad you have many good times to look back upon. Hang in there. Lots of love,
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Love you Kelli!
ReplyDeleteit's ok to be sad and mad whenever you want, never apologize for that. you are passionate, loving, and honest
ReplyDelete<3 u lots