Friday, April 16, 2010

I wish I would have..."mom moment"

I wish I would have hugged her more. I wish I would have laughed with her more. I wish I would have talked about her childhood more. I wish I would have listened to her play piano more. I wish I would have thanked her more. I wish I would have told her I loved her more. I wish I would have had more time with her...

Once again, I am having a hard night. It is a night I am remembering my mom. Nights are the worst, mostly cause I am sitting here alone in a quite house. I miss her so much... more than I thought I could. I am not sure how I am going to do life without her. I start to panic when I really think about it.

This grieving process is so hard... The dying process was so hard... I can't imagine how hard this is for people who don't have Faith.

Moms headstone came in last week. We were so excited on how fast this all happened because we really wanted it here by her birthday, May 7 and Mothers Day, May 9. I am so pleased with how great it turned out.

Thanks for listening...

4 comments:

  1. I can't imagine what your days and nights must feel like. My heartbreaks for you and your families..Thanks for sharing.

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  2. Kelli,
    I just stumbled across your blog...probably not an 'accident'. I get it. I've had these same thoughts and experiences. Life is so different. Take it one day, hour at a time. I will continue to pray for you guys, especially over these next few weeks.

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  3. Kelli,
    Thank you so much for reaching out to me on my blog. Both you and Kristi have offered such kind words of support and comfort. I grieve for your loss, and see how much you are still hurting. I don't want to go down this road, but God hasn't given us the choice. All we can do is trust Him, which like you said, is very hard sometimes. The promise we have for our faithfulness is Heaven, where we will spend an eternity with Jesus and our moms. Thanks again...I will continue to pray for you and your family.
    Joelle

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  4. What a beautiful stone.
    Jill

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