Thursday, March 11, 2010

Here Goes Nothing...

After months of debating whether or not to start this blog I finally decided that it didn't hurt trying. For those of you who care about anything us Baars are doing or feeling over here then here is to you.... cheers!


It has been 12 days since mom passed away and it is really starting to sink in. Today I want to call her, I want to watch her walk through the house, I want to hear her voice, I want my best friend back... It is days like these I try not to imagine the rest of my life. These are things that are done, gone, the past. How am I going to do this? I have such a hole in my life, a whole part of me that is empty. I continue to remind myself to "Trust in Him". Even though I trust... I don't feel any better today...

Kelli
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  1. geraldineMarch 12, 2010 at 7:05 AM

    Kelli you amaze me! You are the most creative an talented person. I can't tell you how proud I am of you. The way you have handled all your personal trauma's in the last couple of years and now the loving care you gave your Mom. It's all amazing.

    I feel for you right now. I know how you feel about the empty hole. I visited your Dad yesterday. It was a nice visit and I will continue to have coffee with him. The empty room, the silence of something missing was hard to face. I knew it would be.

    All I can say to you is carry on. Cry and grieve when you need. Stay close to your family and talk to them about how you feel. We all love you and are here for you.

    Aunt Geraldine

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  2. MelodieMarch 12, 2010 at 8:14 AM

    I love that picture of you and Raylene..I never realized just how much you looked like her until the slide show.
    Love you lots and I just wish there was something I could do or say to make this grieving process easier for you...but I know that's not possible. -always here if you need me. Thanks for sharing xoxox

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  3. UnknownMarch 13, 2010 at 3:25 PM

    Oh Kelli... I wish I could take away all the pain. It warms my heart each time I see you smile, every time you laugh, and it breaks whenever you get that sad look in your eyes. I will continue to pray constantly for peace in your heart and little moments of your day to bring you joy. Look for those moments. I have full faith that God will give you many moments of joy. He'll never leave your side when you need him.
    You inspire me with your faith. You are a blessing in our lives.
    I'm here... any time, any day.

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